Guilty when feeling relieved or moments of peace

Hi everyone, I am in a really bad OCD flare. Its been going since Monday. I had therapy Tuesday which really helped but have continued to spiral since. I have been engaging in reassurance seeking (mainly by reading posts here and facebook) and resisted confessing until last night. My flare has to do with a taboo OCD theme that was directed at someone I care for and has caused me to feel immense guilt, shame and fear. Ive been isolating and staying at home in bed most of the week. I have monents when I feel better, obviously after a compulsion but then I am hit with overwhelming guilt for feeling better. How does everyone manage feeling guilty or like its evidence that "this isn't ocd" or " you're really a bad person" when you feel even slightly better?

Username: steinsara91steinsara91

Date posted: 44w ago

I think when you have ocd, especially when you’re triggered, you’re highly aware of how you feel - or don’t feel - or if your feeling is “okay”. It helps to remember that a feeling doesn’t necessarily mean something. Sometimes a feeling is just a feeling. I get it though! I’ve been there.

Username: Sunday & SalemSunday & Salem

Date posted: 44w ago

I am also in a really bad ocd flare at the moment and am actually going through what feels like much of the same thing you have said. As of right now, I try to just let the thoughts go through my mind and hope they go away on their own. But I also realize when I am not doing anything, like when I am in bed and intentionally focusing on them, they get worse. So, I do try to get up, and try to focus on something else. It is VERY hard and takes a lot of willpower - Especially in the moment. Hope this somewhat helps.

Username: Leila4740202...

Date posted: 51w ago

Can someone send reassurance?

One thing that I’ve noticed about my OCD is that it makes me feel very regretful and embarrassed at the end of every day. I reflect on every interaction and every conversation and any thought that I’ve had throughout the day. As a result, I feel more and more ashamed of the way that I act, even though it is probably normal for some of my age to act and see the things that I say. Earlier today I flirted with a guy and then as soon as it ended I had so much religious and moral guilt about it. Does anyone have any advice on how to not feel so ashamed after doing the typical activities that people in their 20s do? I feel like these thoughts are making me want to isolate from everyone else so that I’m not put in the position to do and say these things. I feel comfortable with myself when I don’t talk to anybody but I’m noticing that that can’t be normal . I don’t want to lose friendships and potential relationships out of fear that I’m going to say something wrong. I don’t know what to do.

Username: Mc88

Date posted: 44w ago

Themes joining

Hi everyone, I am still int he midst of an OCD Flare that started last week. I had 1 day when I felt a little better because I was with my s.o. and he kept me distracted all day Today I am alone at home like most of last week and having a hard time getting out of bed. My compulsions have been reassurance seeking online. Today the taboo OCD thoughts included false memory and I feel numb. No anxiety or fear which in turn is telling my brain that it means I am a horrible person who wanted all of these thoughts, likes them, etc. I have been crying on and off the past week so Im not sure if my body is just exhausted or if I finally accepted I am this terrible person capable of these horrible things. How do you get yourself to 1. Leave your bed 2. Manage the numbness.

Username: bekind94

Date posted: 43w ago

🤓 OCD & Guilt

For me with ocd… it’s honestly the guilt, because mine comes in question forms and an answer is provided and if it feels like yes ocd tells me i don’t deserve to live or have good things which keeps me ruminating until i can dispel the answer is no or idk. If i can overcome that guilt I could beat this. That niggling ocd guilt that says the question needs to be solved Has anyone else experienced them have overcame it?

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