Crisis, I really really need help, please respond

The so called law of attraction is a wishful thinking at its worst. I too had the feeling that because I thought my mom would die when she was gone it was more likely to happen as such. The truth is I've been thinking of actors that I liked and guess what? They never reappeared. That is only OCD manipulating our beliefs

The first thing I learned in OCD therapy is to stay away from the internet. There's a lot garbage on the net, which is counterproductive. The second thing I learned about is something called Thought-Action Fusion, which is precisely what you're experiencing. You're thinking that if you think it, you'll do it, or it's going to happen. In reality, a thought is a thought is a thought. It's not an action, or a threat. Just a thought. That goes for images, urges, feelings as well, which are all forms of thoughts. A harm thought, for example, is no more of a threat than one about ordering a pizza. Just a thought. I like the quote from the English philosopher Samuel Johnson, many years ago: "We all have thoughts that would shame hell." This is very treatable with a trained OCD therapist who uses ERP therapy. NOCD can help you secure a good. Hope this helps.

Some advise, leave Dr. Google alone. I too am guilty of looking things up but when I do especially now that searches and info are coming through AI it is easy to pull stuff that is not true. You have control over who you let into your life. Worrying about bad people or situations will not make them happen. I think all of us with OCD worry one time or another about losing our mind, going crazy or having a psychotic break. It is a more common intrusive thought. If you can try to release the thought from your mind or journal a refute. Such as I am of sound mind and make good decisions. Then if you have a friend or family member you can just go out and do something with to clear your mind or try to, go for it. Be patient and give yourself love and grace.

I’m so sorry that you are feeling this and I can’t help with anything but to say that nobody is going to come hurt you just by you thinking of them. You are allowed to think about them if it’s necessary to process the trauma you’ve been through. Please call for help if you feel like you are having a mental health emergency!

Have you noticed how this thought convinced you that you could achieve your goal in only harmful way? It's like thinking you can reach the peak of a mountain without climbing—just by wishing yourself there. Imagine the possibility of becoming wealthy or earning a degree without ever stepping foot in a classroom. Do you truly believe that's realistic? Just as climbing requires effort and the right path, achieving your goals demands responsible and effective actions, not merely wishful thinking 🤔