Could use some advice

Struggling today with my thoughts and maybe some dissociation. I can’t get any clear thoughts. I felt like lately I’ve started to recover and then the past few days have felt so hard. I feel scared for the future. I am scared I don’t have enough hope for living with ocd. I am scared that I’m not gonna be happy. I’m scared I’ll chose to end my life over this. I’m scared I’ll want to end my life. I feel weird. My thoughts are jumbled today. Something feels like it’s going to happen and that’s what is giving me anxiety.

Username: FLOWER CHILDFLOWER CHILD

Date posted: 12w ago

My therapist says this happens when we start to eradicate the ocd. We've had this disease for so long that it's hard to tell which thoughts are really ours anymore. She told me to do a list of who I am vs what's the ocd. It's helpful to separate yourself from the disease so it doesn't feel like we're losing a part of ourselves once we start getting better. Focus on your wins and progress so far. I was in the middle of a session the other day celebrating some big successes I've had recently and in the middle of sharing, I had the thought that I was never going to truly get better and I would never be happy. It totally knocked the wind right out of my sails. Its another lie from the ocd though. I've been so much happier since I began this process and I'll be damned if I let one little thought pull me back in and keep me from continuing this process. Don't lose hope. Obviously you can do hard things because you've made it this far in life while having ocd. Don't sell yourself short. And please don't stop holding your head above water as the life saver is being thrown to you. Grab ahold and don't let go.

Username: marcygirl23marcygirl23

Date posted: 12w ago

@FLOWER CHILD Thank you for this. Right now I’m just scared. I’m scared to why I’d randomly have this bad of a panic over my suicidal ocd and how I’m doing. I’m scared.

Username: TexasOCD41TexasOCD41

Date posted: 12w ago

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fPtjx2ysxa8&t=572s watch this. it should help. OCD can be a feeling of impending doom. Its not always a thought. Just remember, this is ALL OCD, its not real. Don't try to get away from it, just... allow it to float around you like an annoying wasp. if you swat at it, it might try to sting you, if you just ignore it, it will buzz, and freak you out.... but then it will leave.

Username: anonymousN

Date posted: 5y ago

Kind of having a hard time today . Keep getting thought about something called disassocitive identity disorder , I saw it in a tv show called bates motel awhile ago . My brain keeps telling me that I will get it . It keeps comparing to the time I kept feeling like a boy . And I’m scared that One day I will turn into a different person and all this other non sense it basically telling me I will completely lose myself and go insane or crazy . Trying not react with fear but it’s getting to me a little bit and it’s causing me serious depression while I’m at work . Keep thinking about how I problem won’t make it past 20 years old . It keeps saying that I have no hope in getting better and I will kill myself soon . I also keep getting thoughts about how I feel so alone and how I have no family or friend support I’ve told them I have ocd and sometimes they talk to me about it but most of the time they tell me that I’m being stupid or just disregard it all together . I don’t wanna put my problems on other people so I try to not take it to heart but it really makes me feel like nobody cares . And I feel like if my mental illness was to ever become even more serious than it already is nobody will help me . Not even my family . I will probably end up being neglected and die alone . I can’t take this . I’m at work and I can barley focus. I just don’t know what to do .

Username: sailor22

Date posted: 4y ago

I wish I knew how the future would be. I’m scared of my harm ocd and intrusive thoughts and more. I’ve been fighting this for 6 months and everyday is a fight. I hate feeling alone cause my family doesn’t understand and I hate knowing I make them worried about me. Day to day is hard at times. The last 2 days I’ve been stuck in a hole and seems I can’t get out of this. I’m scared about sailing again and if my thoughts will follow me.

Harm OCD

Username: Catlove9

Date posted: 1y ago

OCD coming in differently?

I do not even know how to explain what I am experiencing right now. It feels like I am not even myself and it feels like the thoughts are stronger than ever before and that they are more compelling? But I also do not feel like I’m inside my body so it’s making it extra scary. I’ve never experienced OCD like this before. I’ve been doing a lot better overall but now with this, I’m feeling doomed to just be what my thoughts say. It feels like I’ve lost my mind if I am being honest and every thing is triggering me. It does not feel like OCD this time. Any advice?

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