OCD makes me feel like a bad person (vent)

OCD makes me feel like i am the scum of the earth and i believe it is true. i’ve done horrible things in the past when i was younger that i am not proud of. i know people say that we have to forgive ourselves for our past mistakes/know that our mistakes don’t define us or what not, but i feel like what i’ve done is irredeemable. although i was young back then, it dosent make it an excuse bc i am old enough to know it was wrong. why would i do that?? i’ve tried to forgive myself, but i keep going back in a loop bc of my OCD. what if i am using my OCD as an excuse? i don’t know what to do, please help.

Username: jaimosaurjaimosaur

Date posted: 17w ago

i totally understand where your coming from. i feel like im very cold to people i care about sometimes because of ocd triggers. when i get triggered i immediately get really bitchy. it just takes time to understand that, hold yourself accountable for your behavior, try to fix it. but remember you still have ocd and that takes time and therapy!

Username: fuzzy_caterpillarfuzzy_caterp...

Date posted: 17w ago

you aren’t the only one struggling with this. I have been dealing with the same thing, ruminating over a past incident in which I did something that I should have known better not to do. The guilt eats me alive. The only thing we can do is hold ourselves accountable, recognize we did wrong and move foward. It takes time but you can get through it

Username: Abhi99

Date posted: 5y ago

There are my pasts which I am not proud of and make huge mistakes.......now after so long suddenly these memories are coming back to me.....getting a worse anxiety...and feeling shit about myself...I don't think so I can ever forgive my self It turns me to a bad person...I don't know what to do.....how to live anymore..Is this even normal in OCD....or it's not my OCD...I don't know how to correct my past..

Username: 🌸

Date posted: 3y ago

People can change right?? I did terrible things..even last year. Probably even this year. Which would make me my fears. But I regret them so much,I generally just want to move on and be a better person, but I feel I don't deserve to..this isn't ocd making a little bad thing bad, these things were terrible. And I know it,, everybody would know it. I just want to love myself for who I am today, not my past. I chang everyday but I generally feel so much guilt and disgust. The ocd with intrusive thoughts that I wanna do it all again. Makes me feel I still am my fears...I hate it so much. This wasn't 1 mistake or 2..or even 3. It was so so so many disgusting, horrible,shameful mistakes. I did for years and years. And I mean 11+ years.

Username: vaIentine

Date posted: 26w ago

does anyone else’s ocd make the past 100x worse?

i’m ruminating on odd past mistakes i made and i feel so terrible and feel like i am going to be punished for them one way or another. it’s things from 6+ years ago to things that happened literally last year. i feel sick and feel like the nastiest person for my mistakes, my ocd has been latching onto my moral compass and attacking it like crazy :( idk what to do :(

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