SO-OCD HELP

Let me start by saying that I am not diagnosed but I suspect I have OCD. I came out as a lesbian girl 6 years ago but lately I have very often intrusive sexual thoughts about men. These thoughts make me feel disgusted, annoyed, anxious and uncomfortable but I can't help but check every time I can whether I'm attracted or not. I don't want to get married to a man, I don't want to have sex with men or even have any kind of relationship but at the slightest trigger I start to think I'm hiding something. I know everyone has noticed that I'm slowly shutting down, I'm no longer the same but I can't say what's going on in my head. Could it be OCD? and how do I stop thinking about it?

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 30w ago

I am diagnosed with OCD, and I have had intrusive sexual thoughts for most of my life. They're vivid, detailed, and often very troubling and upsetting for me. I don't want to think of these images or scenarios, but I feel almost paralyzed by them. I don't know for sure, but I would imagine this is pretty common for people with OCD and that may be what you're experiencing.

Username: AmandaB345AmandaB345

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 30w ago

This happens to me as well. I’m a straight woman I desire men and want to be in a long lasting loving relationship with a man that I get to call my husband the father of my children. My minds tells me I’d be better off with a woman or that I like woman like that when that’s furthest from the truth because when I have even have a thought about me being with a woman it makes me want to cry and makes me feel not like me. I would say this sounds exactly like so-ocd but definitely talk to a therapist and professionally diagnosed

Username: NeytiriNeytiri

Date posted: 27w ago

How did u realise that u are a lesbian?

Username: Weird berryWeird berry

Date posted: 22w ago

I had no interest in boys, never had, but it didn't seem strange to me. In middle school, however, while everyone was going crazy for boys, I couldn't feel anything except annoyance. I always thought that all girls felt the same way I felt about women. In second grade I fell madly in love with a friend of mine and there I realized that straight girls don't do that. I started exploring it and the journey began from there. I've always fallen in love with women, I've always fantasized about them in every way and so on

Username: flippy15flippy15

Date posted: 10w ago

@Weird berry I have a question to differentiate between this and when you were realizing you were a lesbian to try and understand this disorder that puts untrue thoughts in one’s head. When you knew you wanted to be with girls it probably wasn’t a thought that would pop in out of nowhere and say I’m gay over and over again while talking to someone?

Username: perezmt

Date posted: 2y ago

Sexual Orientation OCD

I’m a lesbian and I constantly have intrusive thoughts that being who I am is bad morally. Also, feel like sometimes I am attracted to men but I know I am not. Is there anyone with a similar experience? Whenever the thoughts come I feel stressed. Sorry, if Thai triggered anyone.

Username: Scooterino

Date posted: 2y ago

Undiagnosed SO OCD since childhood?

I'm starting to believe I have had SOOCD since childhood. I remember having thoughts since as early as 7 that felt bad and wrong and made me sad and worried. Thoughts of being bisexual or lesbian still make me so unhappy and uncomfortable, but they also feel so deeply ingrained in me that I have a hard time knowing what my sexuality is. I felt forced to accept the fact that I was bisexual when I was an adult, even though it made me sad, but is that even true? Is dealing with this since childhood really just denial? Am I just gay? Or is ALL of it a lie and I'm straight? Maybe I'm asexual, and am not attracted to anyone? I can't sort it out in my head, my heart is breaking- my wonderful fiance has been so careful and kind as I process what is going on. Now the idea of having sex or attraction to ANYONE of any gender makes me panic and cry. He is so patient, but he doesn't deserve this, he deserves better than my panic attacks and doubt. Has anyone else had a theme since childhood? How have you sorted what IS real from what is NOT real, now that you know you have OCD?

Username: Anonymous

Date posted: 2y ago

Why does SO-OCD feel so real?

It all started two months ago when I was making scenarios in my head to fall asleep.. i was imagining myself kissing a man and then it turned into a woman. The moment that happened, I opened my eyes and panicked.. it was complete panic, i started sweating, crying and I couldn’t function anymore. I started asking myself “am i gay”, “i have to come out to my boyfriend”, “i have to come out to everyone”, it was all within the span of 10 minutes… soooo overwhelming!! My mind acted as if I was gay, I lost my sense of identity, I couldn’t even trust myself anymore even when I reassured myself. It was such an awful cycle, to look at any person, a man to make sure i was straight, and a woman to make sure I wasn’t gay… i feel ashamed saying this. If i looked at a woman a certain way, like oh she’s pretty, my mind would say yes u see ur gay. After two months, I imagine any interest with a female stranger as a confirmation of being gay, I’m so nervous all the time, i start sweating and checking for groinal responses (the worst is when the response happens).. i cant afford a session with a therapist now, and i keep saying that i dont have OCD, im in denial, and that one day ill be gay. Can someone offer some insight on wether this sounds like OCD?

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