I gave into a POCD intrusive thought. Nothing came of it, but it was wrong. I feel really guilty and am terrified to tell my therapist but I feel like I should because of the guilt. I hate this so much.
This happened to me recently. I think it's important to be so open and honest in therapy. This way you and your therapist can assess everything, how it happened, why it happened, if there were any changes, etc. Don't feel bad, people relapse all the time and it's common. You just have to get back on the horse and start again. And don't feel like you wasted everything and are starting from the beginning. Don't give that to your OCD. And finally if you ever feel like you are being 'judged' by your therapist that is probably just the OCD too! Especially if you know your therapist is someone that you can trust.
But what if it was something deemed illegal? Nothing came of it like I Said but POCD I feel like is especially difficult
@Anonymous - Thinking about doing something illegal and doing something illegal are two separate things. OCD is clinging onto it because it's "illegal". My OCD clings onto my relationship and doubts every single aspect of the person that I am with, because he's so important to me. If it wasn't illegal or wasn't "bad", it wouldn't bother the OCD
Okay, you gave in to an intrusive thought, so you had a setback, don't you think that it's ocd telling you to feel guilty? Your therapist needs to know when you're able to resist and when you are successful, Rome wasn't built in a dat, you can't expect to be perfect and never have a setback.
I know. It's just hard accepting that I can do things going against my morals sometimes.
I mean stigmatized
I know how you feel, currently feeling the same way :( I tend to confess to my therapist but she usually always says it’s OCD
TW: I’m so desperate lately. I can’t sleep, eat or do anything else than feeling anxious and unworthy, full of guilt. A couple of days ago I had sex with my boyfriend and wasn’t turned on and suddenly I thought about something that would turn me on in that moment, thought of different things and suddenly I thought „Just think about children, just this one time“ and I feel like I didn’t do anything against it, I even think I enjoyed it and since then I’m full of fear because I always thought OCD means you do not have these thoughts because you want them but because you can’t control them and you do not act on them. But now I feel like I have and I can’t stop thinking I really am a pedophile now. I feel so anxious depressed and guilty and I do not know what to do, I went to my therapist today and she said it’s my POCD, but I feel like a liar, I’m feeling like maybe I don’t have POCD, I am just denying what I truly am it is horrible I don’t know what to do or think. I’m lost
So I’ve had some anxiety crop up related to POCD this week. Intrusive thoughts, etc. it’s happened once before but I wasn’t educated on OCD then or seeing my therapist so I’ve never talked about it. I’m terrified to tell my therapist because I’m terrified of being reported. I’ve never done anything harmful or even WANTED to do anything harmful. I am NOT a danger and I know it! I just want help dealing with the thoughts but am scared to share in therapy. Anyone else experience this?
I feel so guilty I never asked for this. A certain intrusive thought that I’ve been having that won’t go away came up at the wrong time last night if you know what I’m talking about and now I feel like I’ve acted on the thoughts and I never would never want that. I feel so ashamed
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