I’m tired

I don’t really know what to do anymore I feel bad all the time and when I take my medicine I feel bad for not feeling bad all these memories are on repeat in my head and it doesn’t stop. I’m convinced i’m the worst person ever and I deserve everything bad that happens to me and I think I do. I did things that are actually bad and I don’t know how to fix them and the guilt eats away at me i feel like i’m living a lie and hiding my dirty secrets from everyone. It’s like how could I have not realized these things were wrong. I feel disgusted with myself and I don’t know what to do

Username: Ryan MullenRyan Mullen

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 46w ago

Im sorry! I know its hard.

Username: PaulwithocdPaulwithocd

Date posted: 46w ago

I now how you feel, im going tru it right now a do bad things as a child and now i would never do it guilt is eating me right now, i allso feel bad all the time and iam extremly tired of it. Iam feel like bad person and also my thoughst tells me iam gonna hurt some one. Iam exhousted tired and want cry

Username: AlittlebitalexisAlittlebital...

Date posted: 46w ago

I feel the same way, it’s exhausting. I’m so sorry.

Username: Hippest HobbitHippest Hobbit

Date posted: 46w ago

I've made mistakes too. Everybody makes mistakes. I'm sure many people you know and look up to have made far worse mistakes then you. The truth is people grow and change and people understand that. If you know what you did was wrong all you can do is try to be a better person in the future. Hating yourself won't fix anything and doesn't help anyone. If you want to help people use your story and experience to grow and help people in your community.

Username: FlorenceHanks222FlorenceHank...

Date posted: 46w ago

Hey there, I'm really sorry to hear that you're going through such a tough time right now. It sounds like you're carrying a heavy burden of guilt and self-doubt, but please remember that you're not alone in this. Many of us with OCD struggle with intrusive thoughts and feelings of unworthiness. Have you ever heard of "unstuck"? It's an AI-powered therapy tool specifically designed for OCD, and it's been really helpful for me over the past month. It might be worth checking out, as it could provide you with some additional support. Another member on this forum suggested it to me, and I really wish I had known about it sooner. Hang in there!

Username: spoon (any p...

Date posted: 2y ago

vent

I feel like I'm not progressing anymore, just when I think i think I'm getting better and that my ocd is not as bad anymore it gets bad again. I saw something that triggered a memory of something I did, and I can't seem to let go of it, I been ruminating for hours but my brain won't stop until I "figure" the memory out, until I confess to someone what I did. I feel so guilty and I keep getting thoughts telling me that I don't deserve anything because I'm a terrible person. I don't know what to, I tried accepting the memory and the fact that I can't change the past but it feels like I'm just trying to excuse my actions.

Username: muffpuff

Date posted: 2y ago

i'm so tired

i'm tired of the fear of becoming something horrible. im tired of feeling like i'm an irredeemable monster. im tired of thinking about what happened every hour of my life. im tired of the fear of being a bad person. im tired of never feeling like i deserve anything. i'm tired of the ruminating, the anguish, the guilt, the regret, the pain, the anger at myself. i dont know what i want. it feels as if making my life better will be like excusing my actions. i feel like i deserve this pain. my genuine emotions feel like a facade. im so scared. i dont want to be a bad person. why did i think it was okay in the moment. why.

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