I know it's OCD, I know it is, but for some reason when I remind myself that it's apart of a mental illness. I feel disappointed? Like these thoughts aren't actually my own or that they're what I want. I'm so scared, these thoughts once brought ms so much disgust and anxiety and now I'm scared I've been changed into someone else
I understand how you feel, trust me your morals and truths are still there and will come back when it gets better. It happened for me
It's scary, I feel like I've become what I most feared, and any time I try reminding myself that it's OCD. My brain feels disappointed as if it wanted these thoughts to be true and then it starts making me feel like I like my thoughts, I'm so scared
@Anonymous I’m going through the same thing right now with a new theme, what helps is knowing that I’ve had the same feelings with an old theme and I’ve completely beat that theme. That helps ground me knowing that it’s ocd. You’ll get through it, it just takes acceptance and time. Easier said then done though I’m struggling right now too.
Our brains are nuts let me tell you. The thoughts feel like they are me. They are not, I know that but also I don’t know that. They are so tricky like that. I relate to everything you are saying. And also when I reach a point where certain thoughts don’t hold as much anxiety to me it feels exactly like the way you are saying! That is just from personal experience. Sometimes it even back fires on me when people say it is just ocd, sometimes it feels like people are talking down to me because my brain is screaming at me that it is not! You cannot categorize thoughts and emotions. There is no handbook that tells u what u need to worry about. Even people without ocd cannot understand how they are feeling but their brain are less aware of that gap I think. And ocd really likes you to focus on that because no one, not even the smartest scientist can tell you the difference. We just have to learn how to pick ourselves up and go “maybe your right! Who cares. Shut up brain! Life goes on. I am going to go live” and each time it gets easier.
hey, i totally get where you're coming from, feeling disconnected from your own thoughts can be really unsettling. it's tough when those thoughts that used to cause disgust and anxiety start to make you question who you are. i've got pure o, so even though our obsessions might not match up, i still know that tug-of-war you're going through in your mind. just know i'm here to chat if you need someone who gets the struggle. i've actually created an AI tool that's been a bit of a game-changer for me. it generates personalized ERP exercises and offers guidance when i'm feeling overwhelmed by ocd. since you're already familiar with ERP, you might find this tool useful in handling those tough moments. if you're interested, you could give it a try and see if it makes a difference for you. 🤖👍
Does anyone especially with harm ocd feel like they are their thoughts and want to do these things? Like no matter how hard I try and even during my therapy session I get the constant, “what if this isn’t OCD?”, “you like these thoughts”, “your a bad person”, “your going to act on these thoughts.” It gotten to the point where it feels like I’m actually this person and that I have changed into an evil person and it’s so scary cause it’s gotten to the point where it feels like I’m never going to get my life back and that’s saddening. I’ve never had a violent history never hurt anyone or anything but I don’t know why it feels like I am.
I'm scared I've become my thoughts or I think I'm scared, why does it feel like I genuinely want or like these thoughts. Anytime I remind myself it's OCD or that I don't like it, it feels like I'm lying to myself and that I've liked these thoughts. Please someone give me advice, I'd appreciate it
I can’t except that it was ocd this time because I WANTED to think this disgusting thought I didn’t have to but I let myself think it and I was not testing or checking because I know at that time I wanted it any time I feel a bit better it just feels wrong of course I hate the thought and don’t agree with it at all but at the time I wanted to have it I literally remember thinking at first “ no dont think that!” But still wanting to think it and then afterwards making an excuse in my head to think it because I wanted to and I feel so disgusted and scared of myself
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