Scared of going insane

I’m scared that I’m going insane. I’m scared that I’m gonna hurt someone. I thought I was getting better. Why is it coming back now? During the school day it’s usually okay and easy to distract myself, but when I am home it gets bad cause I have so much free time. It often makes me feel like I don’t recognize my surroundings and like life doesn’t feel real, even though I do!! Like I know where I am, but it feels like I don’t. It also does that with people occasionally where like I know them but my brain makes the connection I have with them feel weird. I’m scared that I’m going insane. I’m scared that I’m just gonna black out and hurt somebody, or lose all my empathy and hurt someone. I don’t even know where these come from, or how they relate but I can’t stop worrying about it. And I’m scared to post this because what if someone replies with yes, I am going insane. I just need comfort and reassurance, even though I know that would only make it worse. But how else do I deal with this?

Username: KyleCanGoTheMileKyleCanGoThe...

Date posted: 2y ago

You sound just like me lol, it’s awful. Im so sorry you are dealing with this. Keep pushing through this. Occupy your time with something, even a show. Try your best to stop ruminating. Let the intrusive thoughts, questions, etc come through and don’t respond to them. Just say maybe, maybe not and continue with your day. You’re not going insane, you’re not gonna hurt anyone, you’re okay right now. Take some deep breaths and try your best to relax.

Username: confusedbutamusedconfusedbuta...

Date posted: 2y ago

@KyleCanGoTheMile Thank you I really appreciate it. Honestly really comforting to know that there is a way to try and deal with it. I hope you’re doing okay!! Give yourself a hug because you deserve one.

Username: KyleCanGoTheMileKyleCanGoThe...

Date posted: 2y ago

@confusedbutamused Thanks, im doing alright. You do the same for me:)

Username: ktome214ktome214

Date posted: 2y ago

This is actually my OCD subtype a long with Harm OCD. I live in constant fear that im going to go crazy. Youre NOT ALONE! I go to therapy every other week, the only thing i can give tips on is maybe when you get those thoughts that say you might go insane maybe try responding with “cool story bro” step outside the OCD and the thought. The more i do it the more i sense its helping, i also just sit with the anxiety and i just allow myself to feel it. Eventually it starts to fade. & in hours i forget i even had the thought. Its slowly helping but take it day by day! 👍🏼

Username: confusedbutamusedconfusedbuta...

Date posted: 2y ago

@ktome214 thank you!!! I love thé “cool story bro” idea

Username: Dee CDee C

Date posted: 2y ago

It’s what ocd does. It lies & latches. It gives you lies to worry about. And latches onto whatever to lure you into the rabbit hole. I know it’s easier said than done but you’ve acknowledged the ocd thoughts. Rather than distracting yourself, might I suggest that you choose in disregarding the thoughts. You can sit with them in a nonjudgmental way. Let them float by like clouds in the sky. It takes practice and you can do it. Hope this helps you.

Username: confusedbutamusedconfusedbuta...

Date posted: 2y ago

@Dee C Thank you

Username: Anon17Anon17

Date posted: 2y ago

This is exactly what i am going through! You are not alone

Username: confusedbutamusedconfusedbuta...

Date posted: 2y ago

@Anon17 You aren’t either!!

Username: Allier792

Date posted: 1y ago

I’m scared

Hi. I’m just really scared and I want to ask questions. I have been ocd and have been really suffering since December. The intrusive thoughts come like I want them now and it’s more of a “ well oh yeah you want to do that, and it’s gonna happen” and I start panicking and can’t focus and it scares the shit out of me. Is that ocd? Or is there something wrong with my brain and I’m actually some psychopath you see in a movie? I’m terrified. Im scared to be around my family, I’m scared to be around everyone. But I’m scared to be alone as well because I’m alone with the thoughts. What if these aren’t intrusive thoughts and I’m actually some terrible person who’s gonna hurt someone or is actually some psychopath who’s crazy? I hate this so much because I use to be so happy and not have any of these intrusive thoughts or worried that I was going to to hurt someone and now I’m so scared all the time. Can someone please answer some of these questions? I just want to make sure that this is ocd and I’m not a terrible person.

Username: Emilia<3

Date posted: 37w ago

Please help me

I don’t know what to say. I feel a bit lost to be honest with my thoughts. They feel so real, they actually hurt so much. Why do I find myself comparing to my boyfriends and my friends? I’m not them, they got nothing to deal with me. It’s just that I feel the need to prove I have it worse, and to do that is to partake in actual harm. I have been feeling really low lately, honestly I feel like I’m losing it. It’s a scary feelings to think unaliving myself may be an option for me but I don’t want to do that. In all the hardships in life, there is so good in there. I have my boyfriend , I got good grades, I have a good home life I guess, I have friends and other amazing things too. It sad to say but I kinda need some comfort to know I’ll be fine. I feel like I’m at the end of my ropes right now. When people tell me their struggles I compare them to my own. When people give me advice, I overthink it. When I have something hope it gets torn apart. My heart hurts a lot. I feel like even if I do pass I’ll just be another number, like a casualty and no one would care. But that’s not true, people do care about me enough that they want me to live. I’m just so tired of feeling this way. I need help. But I feel like I don’t? God fucking damn it leave me the hell alone. I didn’t do nothing at all. I’m a good person I have morals and I have everything that is fit for me. But why go for everything I care about huh? Let me heal in peace. I can’t even pick up a fucking pencil with other thinking about whenever I could draw good, or even take a breather. it’s disabling its fucked and it’s hurts. Leave me alone. I’m too young to bear this pain. Living isn’t supposed to be a chore. It supposed to be something to look toward to the happy things in life. I fear I’d slip one day and do something awful to myself. It takes more than two painkiller to kill you right? I won’t do anything bad. Maybe I shouldn’t consider this though. I feel like I’ve reach pure insanity with my mental health. Maybe I am depressed or something. God I need help. But why do people try to even help me? Why do they care? I feel myself switching. I’m trying my best to not believe anything my thoughts are telling me. I feel so awful to the point I feel happy. What type of sick shit is this? I do care. But at the same time I feel nothing. This is terrifying and torturous. Please help me. What is this?

Username: malolin_21

Date posted: 23w ago

FEAR OF GOING CRAZY

I just think this isn’t ocd anymore, i don’t know how to explain it very well but every since my ocd started i’ve been getting this weird sensation that i described as anxiety but i associated with the fact that i’m actually going crazy and that i’ve been faking mi whole life and i want to hurt the people i love (specifically my mom) i know i love her but i get trigger literally by everything and i’m so scared. My mind is telling me that i don’t have empathy so i’m constantly checking if i feel the way i have to when something sad happens and the thoughts are racing, i’m so tired of this it’s like i don’t know who i am anymore, i feel like i’m about to snap and hurt someone.. pls someone respond to this

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